Fine, just come back from hostel, departed by 6pm but reach home at 9, stupid traffic jam~ Well, for this week, nothing really special, study, sleep, dreaming, novel, eat, walk, chat~ kinda miss home. At first, I thought I won't get homesick, but I really missed my sweet home, the bed, soup, mom, dad, grandma, bro, and my ah boy~ When I came back from the hostel, my grandma smiled at me and said " ah qian, finally come home ar, heheeeee~" When she "hehe"ed, I was so touvhed, my grandma really worried about me...... She told me that she always likes to sit beside my mom when my mom is chating with me, she is so worried when I told my mom that I haven't bath at 7pm, she said she afraid I will be in danger..... T.T Although I know that this is quite funny since bath at 7pm is kinda normal for me, but I really feel so touched~ Well, I will try my best to bath before 7pm, 6.59pm can ah? XD
Today, there was a short break for one hour, so my friends decided to go out to have McDonald~ Well, first we cannot find the McDonald that we thought that it is nearby (actually it is just about 1km from my college but we didn't notice it). Next, a spider was observed at the mirror thingy, my friend sitting in front not the driver was frightened and screamed for so loud, she looked like she wanted to jump off if the spider tried to approach her from any 1cm more~ haha, we took some time to comfort her, then we continued our journey. Half an hour passed and we cannot find it, so we decided to change the venue to Wangsa Walk. Then, we used some time to go there since we didn't where exactly is it. After eating, it was 1 minure to our class time. OMG, we rushed to the car and rushed back to the college but we cannot find where is our college! So, we went round and round, finally we reached the class after 20 minutes ( we went to toilet and I rushed until almost fall down and kissed the floor, stupid shoe~) . Luckily, the teacher just started the class, and she did not scold us on it. A special experience for me since I never did that before even in the secondary school.
I used to be a strict, stubborn and fierce lady boss in front of my friends in the secondary school. I don't know why, just simply want to show face to the others to protect my stupid pride, but I also worry about the impression of mine in their mind. I really hope to be as friendly and popular as kjs and huei yein. I admit that sometimes, I envy them. Ya, I am a human, a normal student with a better result and bigger body, bad tempered and negative-minded. I envy my friends, they can be so natural in front of friends, everyone just loves them and they are always welcomed. I don't really think that result is very important, I just take it as my responsibility as a student to study well and as a child to make my parents proud. I study really hard, I want to be the best, beat the rest, so that I have the "face", and hopefully my family members and also my parents can be proud of it.
Actually, long time ago, I knew that besides results, I have nothing. I don't have any special skills, I don't know how to play piano, guitar, or even cook, do housechores, dance, sing and also communication. I just don;t know what is the real me, don;t ask me to be myself, because I don;t even know who I really am! I hate to be that negative-minded, but I really afraid that I will be rejected.I know I am not the one always being welcomed, I don't know what I should do, study? Enjoy? I agree with a maxim saying that, without a clear objective, you will not succeed. I am now perfectly stucked! I know I should relax, be optimistic, be open-minded, do not think too much, be myself, study hard, enjoy college life, make more friends...... But beside these, what can I do? useless person @@
My dad used to tell me that I am stupid, I will not ever and never chase up my brothers' talent and abiltity to mix around, and the most important is, I will never smart. I will be just stubborn, stucked in the life, do not know how to communicate and interact with people, do not know how to talk, so I will never survive in the realistic society. I know I shouldn't cry, but the bitter in my heart, I just wanna release it. Sorry if I irritate you, please forgive me, thanks a lot for reading the post. I will cherish it, since I really need a friend to talk, but when I check my phone number list, I do not know who to talk. Some i did want to call them, but do not know how to start. Should I just dump everything on them, or just simply chat something? I do not want to lose anyone of them, I need them, ans YOU too, who is reading now.
I AM SORRY BECAUSE THE TITLE OF THE POST IS HAPPY NEW YEAR BUT I JUST WROTE SOMETHING SO ERHEM, SORRY IF THIS IRRITATES YOU :)
2012年1月20日 星期五
2012年1月11日 星期三
college life
Since I am using the computer in cyber cafe of my college, so I can only write in English because there is no chinese writing application~ Don't laugh at me, I am totally stupid in computer and Internet~
Well, I feel bored actually since the first day until now, T.T, I don't have any friends here, I am totally new to the environment, teacher and hostel. Ya, I live in hostel, 2 person in 1 room, my roomate is ok. She really, really has the characteristics like Su Vin! She is smart, discipline, a bit shy, patient, always calm, don't ever never stay up till midnight, less emotions and bla bla bla~ OMG, I live with a SV-B~ hehe, no offence, she is boring, I mean, my roomate~ She talks, but very less, she just ask some basic questions and that's all. I need to find many titles to chat with her, but she seems like don't like to talk, maybe only me......== Once, I asked will the lecturers scold the students who sleep, or not being punctual to class, or not finishing projects and homeworks, she looks at me like I just came out from Tanjung Rambutan~ Argh, she said why I asked questions like this and lectured me on being a good student who should know her responbilities to study and get the best results.
Haiz, since Jia Jing and KJS went to NS, I don't know who to find to chat and waste my time. Don't ask me to study, I am totally not in mood. Oh ya, I haven't said about what I took ar? I am currently studying at TAR college, A-level programme, I am taking Law, Business Studies, Economics and General Paper, perhaps I will add one more, which is Accounting, since Puan Tee teaches me so well, until I am quite enjoying the Accounting class~ ^^
Living in hostel is nice, no air-conditioner, quite hot, I cannot concentrate on my reading and study. Since I haven;t get a textbook yet, well, I just provide an excuse for myself to not to touch books. The first and second day were orientation programme, while the class starts on Wednesday. I went to library to borrow the textbooks to photostate them because the book fee is extremely expensive, RM500~! I rather use it to eat and travel.
Yesterday, I just went to my first class, Law. The teacher is quite nice, but his eyes got some problem. When he talked to me, his eyes looked at another side, so I thought he was aiming another person, then when I looked behind, no one was there. He pointed at me and said, "Ya, it's you.". OMG, I am just frightened. Of course I don;t dare to ask why, but all my friends said that his eye memang like that. (hehe, rojak a bit) ~ The Accounting teacher is funny, he kept asking us why we looked so scared, and kept telling us that he doesn;t eat human. But, actually I don't think I looked like I was scared, buuuuuuu to the teacher. The Economic teacher is a lenglui, she is quite pretty and slim, she talks soft but everyone can listen. She is just perfect. My Business Studies teacher is ok, she is quite old like my mother. But, the tutorial teacher of Business Studies is a handsome guy, no more than 30 I think, he taught well, but his notes got some spelling error.
Well, my class has only 14 people, mostly girls, some are really pretty, one of my classmates is an international student from Sri Lanka, she is nice. I made some friends, not many, but I think they are just ok for me. Suk Han, Siew Hui, Choi Keng, Wendy, Adela, Philip, Han, Moon, Veronica and others who I don't really know about them. Suk Han is from international school, she is just 16, OMG, I feel old = =lll.......... Moon and Veronica are my seniors, they are quite nice.
I decide to join Community Service, their members must know how to speak Chinese, they will go to the villages where even Google map also cannot find to educate the people there, and provide some services, I love it! Erm, I hope to join Student Welfare Committee, but the president said there should be an interview, so see first la~ Erm, I don't dare to join too many clubs since the homeworks and projects for A-level are quite heavy.
Oh ya, one more thing which is not related to the college life, I am approved by thr Pu Gong Ying Society to become the ajk for their camp after an interview and a trainee camp! Quitre excited to join the big family, it is nice to mix with amny friends who are smart and active to organise a successful camp!
One more, seriously, this is the last one~.............................
I miss u all~ I miss all the friends in SMKTD and my wives~ no one can let me hug and touch here, no one can chat with me here, no one can go for dinner or lunch with me, no one can study with me~ I miss u all! I really hope to go back to my form 5 life although I need to face SPM again....... Xing Min, Huei Yein, KJS, Jia Jing, Xim Yee, Yi Ling, Su Vin, Kang Li, Tata, Sue Anne, Su Ping, Yi May, Kath, Mei Khay, Lydia~ and other many many of my good good friend! Argh, Doraemon I need u~
Well, I feel bored actually since the first day until now, T.T, I don't have any friends here, I am totally new to the environment, teacher and hostel. Ya, I live in hostel, 2 person in 1 room, my roomate is ok. She really, really has the characteristics like Su Vin! She is smart, discipline, a bit shy, patient, always calm, don't ever never stay up till midnight, less emotions and bla bla bla~ OMG, I live with a SV-B~ hehe, no offence, she is boring, I mean, my roomate~ She talks, but very less, she just ask some basic questions and that's all. I need to find many titles to chat with her, but she seems like don't like to talk, maybe only me......== Once, I asked will the lecturers scold the students who sleep, or not being punctual to class, or not finishing projects and homeworks, she looks at me like I just came out from Tanjung Rambutan~ Argh, she said why I asked questions like this and lectured me on being a good student who should know her responbilities to study and get the best results.
Haiz, since Jia Jing and KJS went to NS, I don't know who to find to chat and waste my time. Don't ask me to study, I am totally not in mood. Oh ya, I haven't said about what I took ar? I am currently studying at TAR college, A-level programme, I am taking Law, Business Studies, Economics and General Paper, perhaps I will add one more, which is Accounting, since Puan Tee teaches me so well, until I am quite enjoying the Accounting class~ ^^
Living in hostel is nice, no air-conditioner, quite hot, I cannot concentrate on my reading and study. Since I haven;t get a textbook yet, well, I just provide an excuse for myself to not to touch books. The first and second day were orientation programme, while the class starts on Wednesday. I went to library to borrow the textbooks to photostate them because the book fee is extremely expensive, RM500~! I rather use it to eat and travel.
Yesterday, I just went to my first class, Law. The teacher is quite nice, but his eyes got some problem. When he talked to me, his eyes looked at another side, so I thought he was aiming another person, then when I looked behind, no one was there. He pointed at me and said, "Ya, it's you.". OMG, I am just frightened. Of course I don;t dare to ask why, but all my friends said that his eye memang like that. (hehe, rojak a bit) ~ The Accounting teacher is funny, he kept asking us why we looked so scared, and kept telling us that he doesn;t eat human. But, actually I don't think I looked like I was scared, buuuuuuu to the teacher. The Economic teacher is a lenglui, she is quite pretty and slim, she talks soft but everyone can listen. She is just perfect. My Business Studies teacher is ok, she is quite old like my mother. But, the tutorial teacher of Business Studies is a handsome guy, no more than 30 I think, he taught well, but his notes got some spelling error.
Well, my class has only 14 people, mostly girls, some are really pretty, one of my classmates is an international student from Sri Lanka, she is nice. I made some friends, not many, but I think they are just ok for me. Suk Han, Siew Hui, Choi Keng, Wendy, Adela, Philip, Han, Moon, Veronica and others who I don't really know about them. Suk Han is from international school, she is just 16, OMG, I feel old = =lll.......... Moon and Veronica are my seniors, they are quite nice.
I decide to join Community Service, their members must know how to speak Chinese, they will go to the villages where even Google map also cannot find to educate the people there, and provide some services, I love it! Erm, I hope to join Student Welfare Committee, but the president said there should be an interview, so see first la~ Erm, I don't dare to join too many clubs since the homeworks and projects for A-level are quite heavy.
Oh ya, one more thing which is not related to the college life, I am approved by thr Pu Gong Ying Society to become the ajk for their camp after an interview and a trainee camp! Quitre excited to join the big family, it is nice to mix with amny friends who are smart and active to organise a successful camp!
One more, seriously, this is the last one~.............................
I miss u all~ I miss all the friends in SMKTD and my wives~ no one can let me hug and touch here, no one can chat with me here, no one can go for dinner or lunch with me, no one can study with me~ I miss u all! I really hope to go back to my form 5 life although I need to face SPM again....... Xing Min, Huei Yein, KJS, Jia Jing, Xim Yee, Yi Ling, Su Vin, Kang Li, Tata, Sue Anne, Su Ping, Yi May, Kath, Mei Khay, Lydia~ and other many many of my good good friend! Argh, Doraemon I need u~
2011年10月27日 星期四
呕酸水儿～
假期的这个礼拜，好闷，没和朋友联络，也没一起补习，哎呀，即使每天去学校，也很少找人聊天了，我好像开始自闭了，哈哈，就是只想静静做事，发呆，偶尔找亿龄荥敏哈拉打屁一下，很少找之前较熟的朋友，不懂为什么，没话题了，呵呵，距离远了……
我没怀孕，没生病，只是心里好酸好酸，想呕出来，没人要装，哈哈，好怪的比喻……
看见一个朋友的部落格，感觉他的生活多姿多彩，我也想，哈哈，我也不想呆在家里当书虫啊，可是没人信我的，每个人总说我一定会呆在家埋头苦读，希望考到最完美的成绩。是，我不否认，我也想，但其实我并没有那么笨好不好，天天读书我就是猪啦，我也会闷，只是从来没有人明白我，我也不愿去明白。
距离远了，很难挽回吧，我一直认为我找到了好友，但好像不是，你太会交际，我充其量只不过是成绩比较好，脾气坏的恶霸，我真的以为我找到了，也不知怎么，就没什么安全感，算了，一个人也很好。我不知道我算不算做过挽回，我不是很主动的人，所以我永远只有被动，所以就会有这样的下场咯，很笨吧？ 我们原本就没有什么共同话题，大部分都是学校生活，我们的兴趣也差很远，我本身也挺无趣的，我明白，又容易发脾气，谁也会受不了的。
曾有人形容我很自卑，我不想承认，我问过妈妈，他说我很爱钻牛角尖，什么东西都往坏处想，或许我并没有遇过真正的好事，所以自然的想歪吧，呵呵。我也太自以为是了，总以为自己交友不错，但其实我也明白很多都只是看上我的成绩，没人真正与我交心，应该很难和我交心吧，我发起脾气来没人受得了，会有谁要理我？我说话也很自大，没用脑筋想就一股脑儿就讲出来了，总是讽刺人，自以为聪明，爱炒绯闻，哈哈，想起来我没什么优点呢。
我好像看不到键盘了，眼睛涩涩的，我真是太失败了呢，做了十七年的人才知道我有多失败，要怎么形容我的心情呢，生气？伤心？后悔？ 总之就是怪怪的，看见朋友出门不叫我，我会开始怀疑，是我出门时爱指东叫西，命令人，还是我没话题，还是我容易发脾气，我总是自己想，也不敢让人知道，怕被人骂小心眼。今天也不知怎么，就像把东西全摊开，反正要毕业了嘛，也没差多少天，考完试大概也没人会联络我，早点写完心情，自己也会舒服很多。
总想考完试要办个毕业派对，连地点都找好了，可是我总觉得，我做这些干什么，整天打电话找人，确定食物场地，买东西，配合主人家，我好累，其实我可以不用那么累的，可我就是笨，不想麻烦别人，想扮英雄扛完所有东西，拒绝朋友的好意。不过我不后悔，看大家开开心心聊天玩游戏，挺欢喜的，觉得努力没有白费…… 突然好爱你们哦，呵呵，真心祝福的呢。至于办得成吗，没什么人给我积极反映，顺其自然吧，我也不知道。
要考试了，压力挺大的，弟弟又把笔记弄不见，也找不回来，不知要不要重做，他居然还问我着笔记重要吗，不管重不重要，我借给你的东西你就要负责，还想用钱打发我，叫我买。我真想诅咒他，如果能买，那还是我的笔记吗，我自己用几个星期时间整理的东西就这样被你一句话敷衍掉，我真想打他！
排了时间表，却一直跟不上，明明排得挺松的，但我就是懒，跟不上，好怕我读不完，可是心里总有个疙瘩，来这里发泄一番后，但愿能平静下来念书。张嘉倩，加油，你可以的!
我没怀孕，没生病，只是心里好酸好酸，想呕出来，没人要装，哈哈，好怪的比喻……
看见一个朋友的部落格，感觉他的生活多姿多彩，我也想，哈哈，我也不想呆在家里当书虫啊，可是没人信我的，每个人总说我一定会呆在家埋头苦读，希望考到最完美的成绩。是，我不否认，我也想，但其实我并没有那么笨好不好，天天读书我就是猪啦，我也会闷，只是从来没有人明白我，我也不愿去明白。
距离远了，很难挽回吧，我一直认为我找到了好友，但好像不是，你太会交际，我充其量只不过是成绩比较好，脾气坏的恶霸，我真的以为我找到了，也不知怎么，就没什么安全感，算了，一个人也很好。我不知道我算不算做过挽回，我不是很主动的人，所以我永远只有被动，所以就会有这样的下场咯，很笨吧？ 我们原本就没有什么共同话题，大部分都是学校生活，我们的兴趣也差很远，我本身也挺无趣的，我明白，又容易发脾气，谁也会受不了的。
曾有人形容我很自卑，我不想承认，我问过妈妈，他说我很爱钻牛角尖，什么东西都往坏处想，或许我并没有遇过真正的好事，所以自然的想歪吧，呵呵。我也太自以为是了，总以为自己交友不错，但其实我也明白很多都只是看上我的成绩，没人真正与我交心，应该很难和我交心吧，我发起脾气来没人受得了，会有谁要理我？我说话也很自大，没用脑筋想就一股脑儿就讲出来了，总是讽刺人，自以为聪明，爱炒绯闻，哈哈，想起来我没什么优点呢。
我好像看不到键盘了，眼睛涩涩的，我真是太失败了呢，做了十七年的人才知道我有多失败，要怎么形容我的心情呢，生气？伤心？后悔？ 总之就是怪怪的，看见朋友出门不叫我，我会开始怀疑，是我出门时爱指东叫西，命令人，还是我没话题，还是我容易发脾气，我总是自己想，也不敢让人知道，怕被人骂小心眼。今天也不知怎么，就像把东西全摊开，反正要毕业了嘛，也没差多少天，考完试大概也没人会联络我，早点写完心情，自己也会舒服很多。
总想考完试要办个毕业派对，连地点都找好了，可是我总觉得，我做这些干什么，整天打电话找人，确定食物场地，买东西，配合主人家，我好累，其实我可以不用那么累的，可我就是笨，不想麻烦别人，想扮英雄扛完所有东西，拒绝朋友的好意。不过我不后悔，看大家开开心心聊天玩游戏，挺欢喜的，觉得努力没有白费…… 突然好爱你们哦，呵呵，真心祝福的呢。至于办得成吗，没什么人给我积极反映，顺其自然吧，我也不知道。
要考试了，压力挺大的，弟弟又把笔记弄不见，也找不回来，不知要不要重做，他居然还问我着笔记重要吗，不管重不重要，我借给你的东西你就要负责，还想用钱打发我，叫我买。我真想诅咒他，如果能买，那还是我的笔记吗，我自己用几个星期时间整理的东西就这样被你一句话敷衍掉，我真想打他！
排了时间表，却一直跟不上，明明排得挺松的，但我就是懒，跟不上，好怕我读不完，可是心里总有个疙瘩，来这里发泄一番后，但愿能平静下来念书。张嘉倩，加油，你可以的!
2011年10月24日 星期一
加油。。。
拼命告诉自己，SPM很重要，所有的努力就看着一次了，之前成绩都不算什么，可是就忍不住要上网，忍不住把眼睛黏着电视机，忍不住看了几本让我哭到死的小说……
我到底在干什么？ 明知道自己还没准备好，还没有资格问鼎我要的成绩，还没有达到父母老师的期望，还没。。。。。 可是，我就是还是受不了诱惑！ 救命， 在这样下去，我一定会滑铁卢的 T.T
可能预考考得还不错，松懈了吧？可是在这样玩下去，说不定SPM成绩比预考还惨， 我不要！加油加油，努力冲刺，人家可以每天读书，我也可以！专心一点，过了两个月，你就自由了！自由，我实在是太向往了，舒服的睡觉的日子，会来的。。。。
如果觉得很不耐烦，对不起，纯粹是发泄心情的废话……
我到底在干什么？ 明知道自己还没准备好，还没有资格问鼎我要的成绩，还没有达到父母老师的期望，还没。。。。。 可是，我就是还是受不了诱惑！ 救命， 在这样下去，我一定会滑铁卢的 T.T
可能预考考得还不错，松懈了吧？可是在这样玩下去，说不定SPM成绩比预考还惨， 我不要！加油加油，努力冲刺，人家可以每天读书，我也可以！专心一点，过了两个月，你就自由了！自由，我实在是太向往了，舒服的睡觉的日子，会来的。。。。
如果觉得很不耐烦，对不起，纯粹是发泄心情的废话……
2011年9月9日 星期五
The First Week of Trial Exam.....
erm......so far so good......
Bm- I targeted a very high mark for my karangan but i dont think i can get what i want as i am lack of time to finish it...my points is not enough and my sentences is not beautiful and flower, i dont really put a hope on A....perhaps A- la....
Bi- same like bm, my essay sucks because of the same problem....what a stupid me....my summary isnt well and my novel is short.....haiz.... again my hope is gone
mm- i did a careless mistake in paper 1.....for the first question about significant number.....so stupid and careless....plus i am very sleepy because of the blackout last night....i cannot fall asleep since the mosquitoes love me so much....i stayed from 4 o clock to 7 morning but cannot do anything besides playing handphone and act stupid.....damn it, my sejarah screwed up because i cannot revise that night
sejarah- i break my record......i dont want to be too arrogant but since form 4 until f5 midyear exam, my sejarah never get lower than 95 but i think this i will not even get an A+ because my paper 2 sucks....the subjective questions are tough and i cannot figure out any answer... so i use menjaga keamanan negara for every single question.... feel so sorry to sir magandran as he put so much hope on me....
whatever, these exam have passed, so now i think i should concentrate on my add matyhs and the stupid moral rather tham moanning and whinning here so that i wont lose too much A's.... jiayous to everyone and to me too....^^
2011年6月28日 星期二
好久不见～
呵呵，好久没上来，别骂我，最近为了辩论的东西忙得焦头烂额，又要做AmProject， 还有PNB的比赛以及一些私事，家里没有女佣了，得自己打扫，根本没有时间写东西……没骗你们，我已经有两个星期没碰书了，就是温习啦，不是没有碰，只是没有专心读书……
瓦咔咔，要很高兴地在这里宣布，我，嘉靖，sue anne 成功进入全国 PNB Kuiz Pelaburan 总决赛了！超兴奋的，其实老师也承认刚开始时没把希望放在我们身上。但我们做到了！说实话，sue anne 是完全不会经济的，而嘉靖也只有一年的基础，所以希望都在我这儿。他们负责背那些ASN，而我则负责ekonomi asas， 大家也都是抱着去玩的心态去比赛，毕竟我们也觉得自己的实力比较弱。这是想说，最后一名也有一百块可以拿，所以也没什么所谓。 而且很巧的是，我们三个都同时被大姨妈拜访，还是第二天，我们的比赛颜色也是红色，结果就一路旺到底！哈哈，上天真眷顾我们。不管怎样，既然已经走到这里了，会努力读书的，但愿可以在下一城，加油！
今天辩论，是算口试分数的，占了SPM的13%，大家都很紧张，我昨晚也一点多才入眠。原本以为自己讲的还不错，其实没有满分也无所谓，但是也不要用这种荒唐的理由搪塞我，可以吗？那个评审老师居然说，我的声线不够好，要我怪老天爷赐予我的声线不好听，所以就这样扣了我一分。我的妈呀，如果你说我不礼貌，或是不镇定，发音不标准，我至少可以勉强接受，但是这样的理由，想必是谁也会翻白眼吧？我当场想跟老师辩论的，但想到杜老师的面子，真的是花了九牛二虎之力才镇定下来，拂尘而去。说实话，我扪心自问，我的确做了不少贡献，我帮同学们改语音，批改稿件，帮他们想重点，还要每天留下来，求他们练习给我听。我知道，我不够资格，我不是那么的优秀，但是我至少也付出了吧，但是我完全看不到任何感激。我没有生气，只是很失望，这些朋友都跟我的关系不错，但是看到他们冷淡如水的表现，不心寒才怪。在需要我的时候，全都冲过来，叫我帮忙，说有我在很有安全感，说我很厉害，当场也可以帮忙改稿，这算什么嘛！口试已完毕后，我就成了过街老鼠……我不知道要怎么说，只是说了自己的感觉。如果讲了一些伤害了你们的话语，请告诉我，我一定会向你道歉。
离预考的时间只剩一个月多，真的很紧张、也害怕，看见朋友们每天拿着作业努力的做，有的也在拿着历史课本苦读，我也想读书，我也想考到好成绩。并不是心有余力而不足，而是很多东西没做完。要帮家里做家务，不是很习惯，自然速度慢了下来，再加上比赛、辩论稿、Add maths project，还有各种聚会、学会的东西，我没有时间读书，大部分都是做完功课就睡觉了。很累，睡觉爬不起来，那种无力感，我自己也在怪自己……
真的要振作了，目前大部分是都告一段落，但愿我能够有精神，去努力温习所有的科目，为SPM备战，大家也加油哦！
瓦咔咔，要很高兴地在这里宣布，我，嘉靖，sue anne 成功进入全国 PNB Kuiz Pelaburan 总决赛了！超兴奋的，其实老师也承认刚开始时没把希望放在我们身上。但我们做到了！说实话，sue anne 是完全不会经济的，而嘉靖也只有一年的基础，所以希望都在我这儿。他们负责背那些ASN，而我则负责ekonomi asas， 大家也都是抱着去玩的心态去比赛，毕竟我们也觉得自己的实力比较弱。这是想说，最后一名也有一百块可以拿，所以也没什么所谓。 而且很巧的是，我们三个都同时被大姨妈拜访，还是第二天，我们的比赛颜色也是红色，结果就一路旺到底！哈哈，上天真眷顾我们。不管怎样，既然已经走到这里了，会努力读书的，但愿可以在下一城，加油！
今天辩论，是算口试分数的，占了SPM的13%，大家都很紧张，我昨晚也一点多才入眠。原本以为自己讲的还不错，其实没有满分也无所谓，但是也不要用这种荒唐的理由搪塞我，可以吗？那个评审老师居然说，我的声线不够好，要我怪老天爷赐予我的声线不好听，所以就这样扣了我一分。我的妈呀，如果你说我不礼貌，或是不镇定，发音不标准，我至少可以勉强接受，但是这样的理由，想必是谁也会翻白眼吧？我当场想跟老师辩论的，但想到杜老师的面子，真的是花了九牛二虎之力才镇定下来，拂尘而去。说实话，我扪心自问，我的确做了不少贡献，我帮同学们改语音，批改稿件，帮他们想重点，还要每天留下来，求他们练习给我听。我知道，我不够资格，我不是那么的优秀，但是我至少也付出了吧，但是我完全看不到任何感激。我没有生气，只是很失望，这些朋友都跟我的关系不错，但是看到他们冷淡如水的表现，不心寒才怪。在需要我的时候，全都冲过来，叫我帮忙，说有我在很有安全感，说我很厉害，当场也可以帮忙改稿，这算什么嘛！口试已完毕后，我就成了过街老鼠……我不知道要怎么说，只是说了自己的感觉。如果讲了一些伤害了你们的话语，请告诉我，我一定会向你道歉。
离预考的时间只剩一个月多，真的很紧张、也害怕，看见朋友们每天拿着作业努力的做，有的也在拿着历史课本苦读，我也想读书，我也想考到好成绩。并不是心有余力而不足，而是很多东西没做完。要帮家里做家务，不是很习惯，自然速度慢了下来，再加上比赛、辩论稿、Add maths project，还有各种聚会、学会的东西，我没有时间读书，大部分都是做完功课就睡觉了。很累，睡觉爬不起来，那种无力感，我自己也在怪自己……
真的要振作了，目前大部分是都告一段落，但愿我能够有精神，去努力温习所有的科目，为SPM备战，大家也加油哦！
2011年6月18日 星期六
这几天
看见xim yee 在她的 blog 提到了我，很开心。以前，很喜欢看人家的blog， 总希望有人会提到我，这次xim yee 说我是她的好友，很感动，我也很爱你～相信我们的友情，不会因分班而受影响，有什么事都可以找我……我会尽力帮你的~
这个星期，想必每个人都拿了成绩，我得了不错的成绩，不知怎么，请不要骂我，每个人有每个人的标准 ，因为大家都做了不同的准备功夫。我承认这次不必上次努力，再加上有考中四的东西，我读不完，所以考得不尽理想。比起上次，我退步了。不要骂我，真的，我很不满意，不是名次问题，不是最高分问题，是我的标准问题。可是，我真的很努力了，又不想去补习，那要怎么办？每个老师不断的给我压力，父母虽然没说，但我了解他们的期望，我自己本身也要求很高，所以每天都在挣扎着。但愿，我可以有力量，继续加油，大家加油！
下个星期有辩论口试，正反两方都pakat好了，纯粹做戏给官员看，希望可以成功。我付出了不少时间准备，帮朋友纠正错误、改稿、发音，大家加油。如果我太凶了，或太严格，对不起，请体谅我，希望大家的口试分数可以很好！
我家的佣人，kakak 要回家三个月，惨了啦，我要开始做家务了。很讨厌弟弟，最大那个，每次都不帮忙，讲他当你耳边风，气死了。以前kakak 不在一个月时，我很乖，有熨衣服，可他只是抹地耶，我家平时每天抹地的，他居然三天才做一次，有时还要我八十多岁的婆婆帮做，还面无表情，真的很讨厌他！喝了东西随便放，袜子随便丢，骂他他不是不理你，就是讲回你。我真是不敢想象以后的三个月，痛苦啊～
这个星期，想必每个人都拿了成绩，我得了不错的成绩，不知怎么，请不要骂我，每个人有每个人的标准 ，因为大家都做了不同的准备功夫。我承认这次不必上次努力，再加上有考中四的东西，我读不完，所以考得不尽理想。比起上次，我退步了。不要骂我，真的，我很不满意，不是名次问题，不是最高分问题，是我的标准问题。可是，我真的很努力了，又不想去补习，那要怎么办？每个老师不断的给我压力，父母虽然没说，但我了解他们的期望，我自己本身也要求很高，所以每天都在挣扎着。但愿，我可以有力量，继续加油，大家加油！
下个星期有辩论口试，正反两方都pakat好了，纯粹做戏给官员看，希望可以成功。我付出了不少时间准备，帮朋友纠正错误、改稿、发音，大家加油。如果我太凶了，或太严格，对不起，请体谅我，希望大家的口试分数可以很好！
我家的佣人，kakak 要回家三个月，惨了啦，我要开始做家务了。很讨厌弟弟，最大那个，每次都不帮忙，讲他当你耳边风，气死了。以前kakak 不在一个月时，我很乖，有熨衣服，可他只是抹地耶，我家平时每天抹地的，他居然三天才做一次，有时还要我八十多岁的婆婆帮做，还面无表情，真的很讨厌他！喝了东西随便放，袜子随便丢，骂他他不是不理你，就是讲回你。我真是不敢想象以后的三个月，痛苦啊～
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